I am sitting on my back porch enjoying the breeze, blue grass music, and the sweet voices of my 2 kids and husband having a raspberry adventure. I woke up to a 1 month old baby girl and a 2ish year old that all of a sudden ask a MILLION questions including why to everything. I pretty much think he is brilliant and of course, strong and courageous. He invites me to explore and see things from a different perspective than I am unable to see a lot of days.
Tuolumne calls me to stop and sit. She cuddles, smiles, and wraps her arms around you in a way that makes you want to to stay still forever. It makes you want to freeze time, even though waking up at 3am still isn't my favorite thing, but she makes it worth it.
My husband has a way of calling me to freedom. To beauty. To a journey worth fighting to be on. To a gentleness yet very bold and fierce walk. He has a way of making sense of things that just don't. Or a way of making a good mess of things that you think make sense, which sometimes is a lot better.
I have no idea who knows what and what people do know who do know something. Everyone has felt everyday. You have felt the days of the week, an how the weeks turned into a month. For me, I woke up and a month has passed. That is what it feels like for me anyways. Details and the events of the month are given to me in small doses as I am trying connect all the pieces together. I will eventually figure out how to orchestrate this story in the way it should be told and the way God wants me to share it.
Right now, I can't tell you how good it is to lay next to my husband under the covers at night. It is so good to hear Cap laughing in his sleep at 4am. It is so nice to be home for breakfast and to feed Tuolumne with no assistance. It was so good to come home to trucks all over the floor, dirty laundry in the bathroom, and a bassinet in our closet. I am thankful for dishes, ants crawling on my feet, Cap laughing with his dad and the girl sleeping at my feet as a type.
We are all a little different, outside and inside. But next month we will be too.
11 comments:
Beautiful words and I am so thankful our God is giving them to you. I cried last night when I saw the picture of you and fam at home. It is beautiful and we only can PRAISE GOD for His Great Blessings on you. I keep praying. - Karen Hughes
so glad you are home and God is walking with you during this time of recovery. So wonderful to see pics of you and your growing family! Hard to believe it was just yesterday (well not really) ya'll were all running around Northern Little League! Sending lots of prayers to you and your family as you continue down the path of healing.
Kendra you have been in our hearts and prayers. We love you. The Hendricks family. I still have my special tape measure if you would like to use it. :)
Man, I wish I knew y'all were in Colorado. I was living in Boulder last year. I know that's not super close but I still would have come to see you! Continuing to pray for you and your family! -Amanda Goble
I love this post and your writing, Spesh. God is good. Grateful for you!
I love this post and your writing, Spesh. God is good. Grateful for you!
Praise God for His amazing timing and perfect will. Praise Him for his hands of healing, hands of mercy, hands of restoration, and the wisdom they bring. Praise Him for your heart sweet friend that He chose to perform such a blessed and beautiful miracle through you for others to see His faithfulness and His power through you and your family. Thank you for your willingness to shine in the fullness of HIs light. You are a beautiful blessing to us all sweet sister. --Amen
Kendra, I am so happy that you are home with your darling little family and that everyone's prayers are being answered! I prayed for a complete recovery for you and I will continue to do so. You are a dear, sweet person. Kathy Knight (mom of Jake)
I am a friend of your brothers and I have been praying for you daily....so touched by your story. As we wait to meet our third baby in a few weeks, I am overwhelmed at your strength as a mother and can only imagine the emotions involved in this journey you have been on. Amazing how much life can change in such a short amount of time. What an inspiration you are! My family and I will continue to lift you high in prayer down the rest of your road to recovery. So happy to see you home and smiling....you have touched many lives! In His Love! Ashley
Dra, it is so good to get caught up a little on your life. I am still praying the same prayer I prayed for you so many years ago, not your name but His. Love you sister! L'Rona
Love, love the pictures!!!!! What a beautiful family you have! Feeling so THANKFUL this morning again...... for all the Lord done!!!! What a miracle your healing has been! Hugs!
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